Well, I suppose I should address the elephant in the room and explain myself. (Oh, this is going to be dramatic, I can already tell!) My break was much needed. I was in the throes of a thought heavy semester, I was still healing physically, and I was quite consumed with soul-searching while wondering what was next for our little family.
My thought heavy semester: I took 4 psychology classes and last semester will go down in the books as the semester that changed my life. For so many reasons, but these 4 classes added so perfectly to where I was. My favorite class of the semester, no, my favorite class I've ever taken was culture and gender. I read A Geography of Time, The Feminine Mystique, and Crazy Like Us. I would recommend every one, for better or worse. Our lectures and discussions we're invigorating, thought provoking, and real. My beliefs (in things non-religious) were challenged and often times invalidated. My opinions we're pulled apart, inspected, and even shattered at times- and I was forced to pick up the pieces and form replicas of the old or completely new ones. I suppose I could write more here, but I'll leave it at that. If your mind simply will not rest until you hear more about my life changing class (ha!), ask me. But fair warning, I can talk for hours about it (just ask my sisters.)
Healing physically: from our motorcycle wreck, though I should probably say mentally as well. It shook me up. There is work still here to do. I am lucky I am young and can put myself back together. It took a few months for me to be able to run again, really run like I had before. I'm happy to report I feel 100% myself, although one of my broken right toes is a sad, sad sight to see. And good news! Landon's staple scar healed nicely and he does not have a bald spot, he was worried.
Soul-searching: without getting too deep into it (ha! again) I will say we found out a few more things regarding starting (or trying to start) our family. Bad news, it would seem. But that bad news lead us to good news and new goals and we feel so peaceful, so loved, and so excited to see how and when our family starts. Anxiety and fear have been removed from my heart and replaced with hope and faith. Of course, there is still sadness, but what would happiness be without it?
I'm glad I have this space to share. And if everyone in the world stopped reading, I'd still write anyway.
I'll be around.
*listening to this on repeat, I'm seeing it. In April. On Broadway. (!)