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17.1.12

you better know what you're fighting for


Today I started thinking.

Today it felt like I had the next year of my life figured out. I know the exact classes to take and the exact days to take them. I know what days I'll work and what shows I'll be working on. I know I'll graduate in 2012. I know a lot of things but the things I don't know.

Today I thought that the next year could bring me a baby. But today I thought the next year could... not.

Today I thought more about grad school. What program I would do, what schools I could get into, where I would do my internship? Research or counseling? Clinical or community? It's exciting to think about!

Today I thought that 4.5 years hasn't given me a child, but 4.5 years has given me perspective on myself, a solid relationship with my Heavenly Father and my husband. 4.5 years has given me an education.

Today I realized that if 2012 doesn't bring me a baby, another year will.

... and "you and I, we'll be fine." We will be fine. I will be fine.

20 comments:

What Spoiled My Eggs? said...

This was beautiful. Thanks for writing it and sharing it. You are incredible, and I think you'll be more than fine. I can't wait to see all of the amazing things this year brings you.

tori said...

It has been so wonderful reading your blog and watching all the changes that have happened in your life. And seeing how you've changed and grown because of them. You are such an amazing writer, and an even more amazing person. And one day, whether it's this year or the next, you will be such an amazing mother. I'm sure of it.

hkfarnsworth said...

I like this. I like this a lot. mostly because i need the same advice. Also whats your major????

Kilie

Brittany said...

loved everything in this post, i think it's what most ladies our age need to hear/read
love your new blog design as well!

The Webbs said...

oh kate, every little thing is going to be alright-just imagine me singing that in a jamaican voice. i know you dont need me to say that for you to know that. love ya friend. i cant wait to see what cute babes you and landon make! as long as i get to give them lots of squeezes and kisses! and im so excited your graduating!! wahoo!!! when did 2012 get here?

Saije said...

I just think you are so, so great, Kate. You are so "real". True and honest with yourself & everyone else-I admire it so much. Your posts are always refreshing!

Autumn said...

Change is hard. It's a great thing we receive direction...even if sometimes it is a tad bid confusing when things don't work out as planned.

angela hardison said...

so well-said, and beautifully written. you're amazing and i'm sure it will be a wonderful year for you.

mindy said...

You are so amazing Kate. Kudos to you for graduating! & you guys will make cute babies...I know it! Hope it happens soon for you! Miss you and love you!

Ezra, Kian & Eden said...

You are an intelligent, independent woman. The proof for that is that you know you can find happiness and success in life no matter what it dishes out. You're awesome lady! (and super cute too)

laurice. said...

You will get your baby just give it time...it hasn't been long enough to even start to think the stuff i brought you won't work for you.

geri e. said...

Waiting is so hard. So so hard.

But like you said, there is a lot of learning and growing and good things that can happen in the between.

Thanks for the perspective. I think I needed it :)

Brittany said...

Oh man Kate, I love this. Life never really happens how we want or expect it to. I thinks that's okay though, you know? Like you said, we'll be fine.

communikate. said...

I love this, Kate! I love that you have so many great things to look forward to. You'll rock grad school if that's what you decide to do!

Sandi said...

where's the "like" button? ha ha..I hope your 2012 turns out to be the best year yet :)

abby said...

Such simple advice but so wise. "I will be fine!" It's something I needed to think about and probably need to repeat daily. (Hourly?) You deserve great things, Kate, and I hope you get them soon!

Emily said...

I hope you don't mind that I don't know you - I actually know OF you from 3 different people - Molli, Julie E, and Mitch (the small world of Thatcher and AZ in general). I found your blog through Molli's and I just wanted to tell you thanks for sharing. Your pictures and words are raw and beautiful. -Emily

shanna kesler said...

Hi Kate,

It sounds like you have a really great perspective on things and a positive attitude - you're inspiring. Thanks for sharing. Wishing you a great 2012!

-Shanna

Megan said...

you are amazing. i love your posts and your perspective on life. you help me be better. thank you for sharing your thoughts. and that picture is gorgeous!

Kelli said...

You are one beautiful lady. I look up to in so many ways my friend. If I had half the positivity you do, half the dedication, half the creativity....my list goes on. I love you.