i have self-diagnosed anxiety. but it's more like sporadic anxiety, it doesn't show up all the time but when it does... watch out. confrontation gives me anxiety, like sweaty-hand-dizzy anxiety. i'm so emotionally driven that when confrontation arises i always say things i don't mean, so i avoid it at all costs. but confrontation snuck in last week and i tried really hard to stay professional and i think i did okay. it confuses me when adults don't act like adults... in adult situations (cause let's be honest, that's the only time when i act like one) when my house is dirty i get anxiety. like mean-frustrated-anxiety and i just need to turn on some music and clean. or run. lando's learned.
so that equals like 4% of my life, add 2% for when i just feel like being grumpy, so the other 94% i'd say i'm pretty happy. i've got lots to be happy for- confrontation and messy houses aside. for instance, yesterday my dinner turned out bombtastic (yep) and lan told me my hair looked "long and golden." hahaha, his compliments are dah bes.